"I woke up this morning knowing that I wanted to film a video. I've been back to blogging since mid-April or so and I've only made one video, so I woke up this morning knowing I wanted to make something, and I didn't know what it was. I was thinking, "Do I want to do a red lip? Do I want to do winged eyeliner? Do I want to do beachy hair?" And for those of you who have asked for those videos, they are definitely coming.
I realized I didn't want to make any of those videos today. I decided I wanted to talk to you makeup-free today. I didn't want to do a tutorial. I wanted to talk to you about not wearing makeup.
I spent this past weekend with my family, and I spent a lot of the days not wearing any makeup, which is very unusual for me. I'm the type of person who will not leave the house without makeup on... without some sort of concealer, or foundation, or mascara, or brows, or honestly, all of it. Even when I'm just out running errands or something like that, I can't really feel comfortable leaving the house without makeup on.
I think that's probably the case for a lot of people. I don't think I'm the only one who uses makeup that way, and I don't think it's the only way to use makeup... and truthfully I don't think it's the only way I use makeup. I love makeup! I'm a hairstylist and makeup artist, its what I do. I love the way that you can transform somebody with makeup, that you can transform yourself with makeup... that you can play up certain features, play down certain features and really just change the possibilities of what you can do with your face. I love how creative it is, and I love to spend time in the morning doing my makeup. I spend probably 45 minutes or so in front of the mirror doing my makeup, and just deciding, "Do I want to use this mascara or that one? Do I want to do something neutral or do I want to do something played up?"
But I also use it as a crutch. I have always been very self conscious about my face. I've been wearing makeup for a really long time, and I hide behind it, I think. To a certain extent. I think a lot of people do! And there was something about this weekend that made me feel like being makeup-free feels really good. It's also kind of scary if you're the type of person who wears makeup to hide: to cover up acne or dark circles, to play up eyebrows you don't have... to hide sunburned foreheads or redness around your nose. And I do all of those things! But I just think that it felt really good to not worry about my face.
I know it's not as simple as that, and I know it's a lot easier said than done. But it's important to feel like you can wear no makeup and that you're going to be okay, and that you're not going to be judged, and that you're not going to get mean comments from people. It's awful to feel like you have to hide a part of yourself — any part of yourself, whether it's your face, or part of your personality, or your body... anything! To have to hide it because you feel like it because you feel like it can't be accepted is not living a full life, and I want to live a full life. I want to live a life where I can be fully and completely myself, and that includes being able to go out without makeup on and feel like I'm still me. I'm not defined by the makeup on my face or how well my hair is done. I'm still Susannah, I'm still the same person. I want to be defined by my personality and my actions.
So I want to challenge you to go makeup free. That sounds like a simple challenge, but it's not a simple challenge. If you're like me, and you use makeup as a crutch... even if you use it in other ways, even if you love the creativity of it and you love how you can transform yourself and play things up and play things down, even if you love it for that reason too but you also use it for a crutch... you're the person I'm speaking to. Because you deserve to feel 100% yourself with or without makeup.
I think it's going out in public or posting a photo or video of yourself on the internet without makeup that is one of the bravest things you can do if you're that type of person. It's also one of the hardest things you can do, because you feel like you're revealing a part of yourself that you only reveal to certain people. You may be the type of person who only shows your makeup-free face to your mom, or maybe you're married and the only person who sees it is your husband before you put your makeup on in the morning, or at night after you take it off, and nobody else sees you without makeup.
You deserve to be seen without makeup and to not feel like you're exposing a raw part of yourself, because you are beautiful. You just are! And it's so amazing that we're all born with different features: that I have a little bit of a hooked nose and circles under my eyes, and a certain shape of eyebrows and eyes, and that the person next to me has completely different features, and that we all get what we get but it's all different and it's all beautiful. There is nothing ugly. You decide what's ugly, and you don't have to think of yourself as ugly.
So I want you to think about going makeup free. It can be for an hour, it can be for a day, it can be for one errand. Go to the grocery store without makeup on. Take a picture of yourself without makeup on, and smile like you would if you had it on! If you are a selfie-taker, take a selfie without makeup. And don't make a goofy face, or a bashful face, or something to sort of indicate, "I know I don't like good!" Take a picture and smile, look sexy, look the way you would if you had a full face of makeup on! Post it on Facebook, post it on Instagram... just let people see your bright and shining face. It's hard, but it's worth it to feel like you can be yourself without the cover-up.
It will take some time, I think, to feel confident enough to do that, but if you feel like posting it is too scary, or going out is too scary, just send me a picture. Just send it to me so that one person can see your face without anything hiding it.
I hope that you get the opportunity to feel beautiful whether you have makeup on or not, whether your hair is done or not, and to feel like makeup doesn't change you. It may enhance you, but it's temporary. You are who you are, and the face behind that makeup will always be the face behind that makeup. I hope that you get the opportunity to realize that it's beautiful and you don't have to have the makeup to be the best version of yourself!
This is the definition of a greater gorgeous. It's about being beautiful with makeup but also beyond makeup... beyond hair color and haircuts and styling and eyebrows. It's the gorgeous you underneath all of the rest of that.
So if you post something, please add the hashtag #agreatergorgeous, because I really want to see it! I love you, and you're beautiful, and I can't wait to see you!"